Why am I such in a hurry to be employed? I don't know but before, I know why, I'll use my career as the way to move on my depressing problems. But it's different now when companies are starting to call me.
I have a job interview for tomorrow at Makati. When I saw their email, I was ecstatic but then, as I practiced my "My name is blah blah blah", studied the requirements, responsibilities & the nature of the company, something startled me. In addition, my mother asked me if I'm ready to have a job. I realized, geez, why am I such in a hurry? To be honest, I need to calm down and relax. I'm not even employed yet but I feel like even though I'm eager to have a job, I'm probably not ready yet. I'm sure I'll miss these bum days when I finally have a job but we'll see.
The only point of this dilemma is that the reason why I'm going back and forth into thinking if I should pursue this job/interview is that I still don't know what I would like/love to do in life. I don't know. I don't excel in anything. Well, I excel in using the internet and socializing with people but I don't know any job that is close to that. I'm only average to everything that I know. That's my problem and I'm hoping that soon, I'll discover what I really love and what I'm really good at. *sigh* I wonder what am I going to be 1 year, 5 years from now. I just don't see the maturity in me and I can't force myself to be mature because that's just impossible. But even though this bothers me, I kind of like this because this is also what makes my life unpredictable and interesting but so far, what's predictable in my life is that, I won't move unless others help me. Wah I need to change this but whatever... I'll get through this. Wahh I need to grow up. Probably.. I don't know. Lulz
Thursday, May 27, 2010
Wednesday, May 19, 2010
Monday, May 17, 2010
She Played Twice, Won Twice
Congratulations Sandra Diaz-Twine for being the Sole Survivor of probably the greatest season of Survivor, Survivor: Heroes vs Villains.Overall, it was a great season of Survivor. Every Tribal Council delivered. If not all, 3/4 of the Tribal Councils this season were great.
I prefer a Parvati win this season just because she's great in all of the aspects of Survivor but I guess that Sandra is just better at expressing herself in Final Tribal Councils that the whole game didn't matter because she speaks eloquently. I won't say that Parvati sucked at the FTC but she didn't shine in it and she wasn't able to defend herself regarding playing the game by her own without Russell related to her. I can't blame her, Russell was her only choice. I thought it's actually a great strategy for her since she had no one to run to during the beginning of the game because almost everyone thought that she's the biggest threat in the game and was gunning for her. It turned out that Sandra was the biggest threat and for Parvati to reach the end game, it's amazing that's why I prefer her to win than Sandra. She also surprised me with her challenge domination this season. But I love both of them equally and I just wish that one of them is the 4th placer. I thought it would be less disappointing for the 2nd placer to be 4th than to lose in a close vote in the FTC but I don't know. Either way, I'm happy that Sandra won the game.
I won't bother writing anything about Russell because he just sucks and in the Reunion show, he proved that he's not playing the game to win so he's really the perfect goat to the end because he's zero when it comes to the social part of the game.
Anyway, cheers to all Survivor fans for another great season. Looking forward to Survivor Nicaragua. Woooh 21st season and going strong. :)
Saturday, May 15, 2010
Rule #32 - Enjoy The Little Things
I got this rule from the movie Zombieland. It's my favorite rule along with rule #18 Limber up. I watched this with my friends, Neh, Zel, Dong and Jigs.
And even though today is nothing special and there isn't a huge wave of zombies approaching in my life, still, I realized that I'm probably mastering rule #32. ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS.
This is me at the moment-- bum, unemployed, pennyless, a little bored, single, ugly (only because of pimples but my facial features are still awesome), hmm what else? That's it. :) And even though I'm unfortunate with my career hunting and I'm so eager to find a job just cause I need money so badly just to pay back the things that my friends bought for me for the past few weeks and to spend it for myself with all the gadgets and other things that I'm planning to do and buy, I keep surprising myself because these life proficiencies that I'm having at the moment don't make me sad and lame. Instead, other little things are continuously going my way and I enjoy it.
Thanks to my friends who keep on pulling me to go to anywhere they want. I'm very lucky to have them because I need them. Sa totoo lang, parang ang epal epal ko na sa lahat ng mga kaibigan ko. But from what I see and feel, they actually love me. Di ko na nga kailangan pang analisahin toh pero nakakatuwa lang isipin na sa mga nagdaang linggo, ilang tao ang mga nakasama ko. Marami. Iba-iba at lahat sila kaibigan ko. Ang dami kong kaibigan. Ako na! :))
Hindi lang yung mga nakakasama ko sa gala, kasama na din yung mga kalaro ko sa PEX at Games that Suck ng Survivor games. I have grown to know some of them and to an extent, care for them. Some of them knows my life stories even though we haven't met each other in real life and we're just friends in FB and to other existing sites and forum. Ang saya kasi natutulungan ka din nila hindi lang dahil common ang interests niyo, kundi, dahil kahit paano, sa mga stories at sa pinagsamahan niyo sa games, ay nagkakakilanlan na din kayo. One time nga, nagpapasa ako ng resume ko sa kumpanya na pinagtatrabahuhan ng kalaro ko pero walang nangyari. LOL
Magaan ang buhay ngayon. All you have to do is appreciate and love the people around you who loves you. These little things are actually the huge ones. After that, wala ka nang dapat isipin. Magiging masaya ka na lang at makakalimutan mo na problema mo. Sa ngayon, ang pinakaproblema ko na lang ay makahanap ng trabaho at matuto magdrive. Huhu gusto ko na matuto magdrive, una, kasi pag natuto ako magdrive, may karapatan na ko mag-aya ng gala. Ikalawa, baka kailanganin ko din sa future career ko. Nag-apply din kasi ako bilang Med Rep pero kelan kaya ako matututo magdrive???
And even though today is nothing special and there isn't a huge wave of zombies approaching in my life, still, I realized that I'm probably mastering rule #32. ENJOY THE LITTLE THINGS.
This is me at the moment-- bum, unemployed, pennyless, a little bored, single, ugly (only because of pimples but my facial features are still awesome), hmm what else? That's it. :) And even though I'm unfortunate with my career hunting and I'm so eager to find a job just cause I need money so badly just to pay back the things that my friends bought for me for the past few weeks and to spend it for myself with all the gadgets and other things that I'm planning to do and buy, I keep surprising myself because these life proficiencies that I'm having at the moment don't make me sad and lame. Instead, other little things are continuously going my way and I enjoy it.
Thanks to my friends who keep on pulling me to go to anywhere they want. I'm very lucky to have them because I need them. Sa totoo lang, parang ang epal epal ko na sa lahat ng mga kaibigan ko. But from what I see and feel, they actually love me. Di ko na nga kailangan pang analisahin toh pero nakakatuwa lang isipin na sa mga nagdaang linggo, ilang tao ang mga nakasama ko. Marami. Iba-iba at lahat sila kaibigan ko. Ang dami kong kaibigan. Ako na! :))
Hindi lang yung mga nakakasama ko sa gala, kasama na din yung mga kalaro ko sa PEX at Games that Suck ng Survivor games. I have grown to know some of them and to an extent, care for them. Some of them knows my life stories even though we haven't met each other in real life and we're just friends in FB and to other existing sites and forum. Ang saya kasi natutulungan ka din nila hindi lang dahil common ang interests niyo, kundi, dahil kahit paano, sa mga stories at sa pinagsamahan niyo sa games, ay nagkakakilanlan na din kayo. One time nga, nagpapasa ako ng resume ko sa kumpanya na pinagtatrabahuhan ng kalaro ko pero walang nangyari. LOL
Magaan ang buhay ngayon. All you have to do is appreciate and love the people around you who loves you. These little things are actually the huge ones. After that, wala ka nang dapat isipin. Magiging masaya ka na lang at makakalimutan mo na problema mo. Sa ngayon, ang pinakaproblema ko na lang ay makahanap ng trabaho at matuto magdrive. Huhu gusto ko na matuto magdrive, una, kasi pag natuto ako magdrive, may karapatan na ko mag-aya ng gala. Ikalawa, baka kailanganin ko din sa future career ko. Nag-apply din kasi ako bilang Med Rep pero kelan kaya ako matututo magdrive???
Sunday, May 9, 2010
Mothers Day
Happy Mothers Day everyone.
It's still early but my day will probably be a sad day. I opted to stay at home rather than to go to Pampanga with papa and my sister's family for my cousin's daughter's baptism and my other cousin's birthday. I was supposed to go with them but I've learned that they won't go home til tomorrow and tomorrow is the May 10 Elections and the only reason why I didn't come is that I want to vote. It's the first automated elections and it would be cool to be a part of that as I can say after I vote that I'm one of the millions of Filipinos who were able to vote in this huge event but by choosing this, my day will probably be sad, boring and stucked in front of the computer. Hopefully not. I'll probably just ask my mom to go to the church later, just the 2 of us, and at least celebrate this day for mothers, with of course, my mother.
Thinking about it, it's a shallow reason to be sad. I'm not really this dramatic when it comes to my family anyway but I guess, I expected that we'll be complete for this day because of Mother's day and we will go eat in a restaurant and I also expected that we will go to the precinct together tomorrow because we all registered at the same time but the plan was ruined and now, it makes me sad. LOLOLOL ang babaw! But probably the real reason why I'm sad at the moment is that, being alone will just make me feel lonely and insecure. I'm trying to avoid feeling this feeling because I'm not really alone. In my mind, I think that the people I care for, not only just my family, are having fun right now. Not that I'm not happy for them but it sucks when you're sad and you need a companion but no one's available for you. I'm not alone though. I have many friends but it sucks because they all have something to do, they have their own lives and they're busy and they can't be there for me just because I'm nagdadrama and I have to ruin their happy hours just for me and even though I wanna spend my time with them, I don't even have money right now to go to their places. Makes me really want to have a job now so that I won't be stucked here at home. It's miserable when you don't have anything to do and you don't have money to fulfill your boredom. It sucks. I just need someone, someone to talk to that whenever others are busy, that person will be always be available for me even with her busiest schedules. But I've got none so yeah, I just have to suck on this misery. Tsk. Makakahanap din ako. Huhu Trabaho sana dumating na. Oh well..
Ui may nagtext. :)
May you all have a happy day!
It's still early but my day will probably be a sad day. I opted to stay at home rather than to go to Pampanga with papa and my sister's family for my cousin's daughter's baptism and my other cousin's birthday. I was supposed to go with them but I've learned that they won't go home til tomorrow and tomorrow is the May 10 Elections and the only reason why I didn't come is that I want to vote. It's the first automated elections and it would be cool to be a part of that as I can say after I vote that I'm one of the millions of Filipinos who were able to vote in this huge event but by choosing this, my day will probably be sad, boring and stucked in front of the computer. Hopefully not. I'll probably just ask my mom to go to the church later, just the 2 of us, and at least celebrate this day for mothers, with of course, my mother.
Thinking about it, it's a shallow reason to be sad. I'm not really this dramatic when it comes to my family anyway but I guess, I expected that we'll be complete for this day because of Mother's day and we will go eat in a restaurant and I also expected that we will go to the precinct together tomorrow because we all registered at the same time but the plan was ruined and now, it makes me sad. LOLOLOL ang babaw! But probably the real reason why I'm sad at the moment is that, being alone will just make me feel lonely and insecure. I'm trying to avoid feeling this feeling because I'm not really alone. In my mind, I think that the people I care for, not only just my family, are having fun right now. Not that I'm not happy for them but it sucks when you're sad and you need a companion but no one's available for you. I'm not alone though. I have many friends but it sucks because they all have something to do, they have their own lives and they're busy and they can't be there for me just because I'm nagdadrama and I have to ruin their happy hours just for me and even though I wanna spend my time with them, I don't even have money right now to go to their places. Makes me really want to have a job now so that I won't be stucked here at home. It's miserable when you don't have anything to do and you don't have money to fulfill your boredom. It sucks. I just need someone, someone to talk to that whenever others are busy, that person will be always be available for me even with her busiest schedules. But I've got none so yeah, I just have to suck on this misery. Tsk. Makakahanap din ako. Huhu Trabaho sana dumating na. Oh well..
Ui may nagtext. :)
May you all have a happy day!
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